Piece by Piece

Piece by Piece

My life is falling apart piece by piece
Putting it back together will be quite some feat
I don't know why I do the things I do
It's probably a problem with me that has nothing to do with you
I say some things I don't understand
I twist some lies that won't ever stand
I guess I don't know what to do
I sort of want to excommunicate you
But by taking you out of my life
I would have to pay a very big price
Because without you what would I be
A wandering person by the sea
A bullet in the head might solve it all
But I'm afraid it might make you fall
The world would be a better place without me
But without you it wouldn't be anything
Because you're the one keeping me alive
If it weren't for you I might just accidentally die
I don't know how to say it because I don't like you
The way people say I do
You're just a friend who means more than a lot
Without you I would never have fought
This fight against my inner self
Sometimes I lose
Sometimes I win
Right now I feel like I'm losing
The bad is going ahead
Leaving the good behind
The mistakes I'm making
I've never made before
And sometimes I just close the door
I don't vent my feelings the way I should
You know more about me than anybody would
No one has ever asked me if I'm okay
Besides my parents' every day
I might lie to them and say I'm fine
But you see right through that blatant lie
I talk to you because it seems like no one else cares
Everyone is busy with their own fares
But you different you're always there…………