Anti-Christ Rising???/

People dying all around
Going down without a sound
No one hears them dying
No one hears the pain
When they go
They don't even know
They live for the day
They don't know what they say

The Anti-Christ is rising
From the depths of their souls
It takes them out
Faster than they know
Drowned in their sins
Without even knowing

Those people say their Christians
They say every thing's all right
They live two lives
Separate in there ways
They're two people
That's all I can say

The Anti-Christ is rising
From the depths of their souls
It takes them out
Faster than they know
Drowned in their sins
To them it is unknown

One life they live
Is one of unknown sins
They are perfect
The person everyone wants to be
But no one sees
Sees the sin they're in
Smoking, drinking, lust
To them it's all a must
Drugs, addiction, and lies
To them it's not unknown

The Anti-Christ is rising
From the depths of their souls
It takes them out
Faster than they know
Drowned in their sins
To them it seems like no one knows

In the church they are the people
That you go to for some help
They have it all together
Or so it seems to you
They're life is full of pain and grievance, too
You can see it in there eyes
They're in deeper than you can ever dream to dig
But for some reason that's what comforts you

The Anti-Christ is rising
Eating the depths of our souls
It takes us out
Faster than we even know
Drowning in our sins
The same way we've been drowned by our tears

In reality we're all to blame
Cause we know someone who fits the description I just explained
It's our fault because we do nothing to help them change
Looking for the answer i found it one day by looking through the bible and listenin to what it says.
In Revelation 6:13 this is what it said ,"So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth."
We are the people who are luke-warm
We're doing fine but do nothing to help the others change

Over....

I'm over
over this fight within myself
I quit
quit these mind games
I'm stopping
stopping all of this
I'm just
just gonna lose control

I give up this fight within myself
Because fighting it tears me apart
Half is wrong and half is right
It's my decision to figure out which is which
The path ahead splits
Each path unmarked, going different ways
I close my eyes to decide which to take
Spin around to distort my senses
If i go down I'll be going without a fight
All my defenses are taken down
so if you strike, you'll strike now
When I go
No one will know
I'll just drift away

Grandma

Grandma

She was always there for you

She had a way of making the biggest problems small

She could always make you smile and the memories still do

She helped the community

But didn't know because in your mind she was just grandma

She had an incurable disease

It was so painful to watch her die ying in front of your eyes

Every time you went to see her

Her nerves were dying

At first she wasn't able to move

Pretty soon she wasn't able to speak

Eventually God put her out of her misery

She was able to go to heaven and be with him

When she passed away

You noticed the impact she had on so many people's lives

And you just sit back and think my grandma changed the lives of everyone around

I'm so glad her I knew her

I'm so thankful she's related to me

Grandma

The Past

So today i was looking through some old school stuff and found a bunch of poems that i wrote a couple years ago.....here they are:

Ode to Jesus

He came down to earth

to save us all

He is the way, the truth, and the life

No one gets to God except through him

He is like a shepherd

He looks after us, sheep, guiding us through life

The sharp nails through his hands

The spear through his side

The cry of his voice

He is like the father who is sacrificed for his son

He died for us, his children

Jesus Haiku

Jesus is the way

he saves all of us sinners

We are unworthy

The Cross

The cross is more than a symbol

It is something in the heart

Without it no one would be able to live in heaven. The laws God

set before us are impossible to follow. No one has followed every

single commandment. Everyone sins and the only was we are

saved is through Jesus.

He died on a cross

For crimes he did not commit.

His blood washed away

Our crimes if we beleive in him

We can be saved too.

The cross is more than a symbol.

Sonnet

With eyes like the sky

and hair like the golden sand

I shouldn't even try

Afraid of the backhand

I;m afraid I'll be here forever

Right now I can't move forward or backwards

I'll never learn for the better

I'll always be locked out of the yard

But sitting here

She's so beautiful

She pierce's my heart like a spear

But broke it like an angry bull

I guess I'll survive

Until the next girl arrives

Moving On

Moving On

I am standing up
Not to be oppressed
I will be moving on
No longer in your debt
You gave up so easily
And pushed me to the ground
When I hit rock bottom
I thought I would be done
But now I'm rising up
Fighting through the fog
Fighting up until I reach the stars
No more getting sidetracked then falling to the ground
I'm just moving on
Through the past
A past full of destruction
Passing by all the people who let me down
Watching there once happy faces turn into frowns
They thought I wouldn't get up once I hit the ground

Unnamed

Unnamed

Friends are there for you when you are down
Friends are there for you when no one is around
The people in my life are all the same
No one can trust me that is all I can say
It's not undeserved I will admit
I've told a lot of lies and that's not it
I don't know why I lie
I just do
And that's a big problem between me and you
I understand and that's the truth
I've made a monster inside me I can not fight
Without the power of God I'll subdue to its might
But with God on my side I might stand a chance
But they people I've hurt haven't forgave me
They don't really know how to save me.................

to be continued

Piece by Piece

Piece by Piece

My life is falling apart piece by piece
Putting it back together will be quite some feat
I don't know why I do the things I do
It's probably a problem with me that has nothing to do with you
I say some things I don't understand
I twist some lies that won't ever stand
I guess I don't know what to do
I sort of want to excommunicate you
But by taking you out of my life
I would have to pay a very big price
Because without you what would I be
A wandering person by the sea
A bullet in the head might solve it all
But I'm afraid it might make you fall
The world would be a better place without me
But without you it wouldn't be anything
Because you're the one keeping me alive
If it weren't for you I might just accidentally die
I don't know how to say it because I don't like you
The way people say I do
You're just a friend who means more than a lot
Without you I would never have fought
This fight against my inner self
Sometimes I lose
Sometimes I win
Right now I feel like I'm losing
The bad is going ahead
Leaving the good behind
The mistakes I'm making
I've never made before
And sometimes I just close the door
I don't vent my feelings the way I should
You know more about me than anybody would
No one has ever asked me if I'm okay
Besides my parents' every day
I might lie to them and say I'm fine
But you see right through that blatant lie
I talk to you because it seems like no one else cares
Everyone is busy with their own fares
But you different you're always there…………

Despair

Despair

In my darkest hours of despair you were there
But where are you know just watching from a safe distance
Standing behind closed doors hoping I'll change
Well I can't change without you here
Because without you I don't need to change
Because you're the one I'm changing for
And without you there to help me through
I'll just drift away
Drift away into the despair
With the darkness rising all around
I do believe I'm falling down
Falling down a very dark pit
I'll just keep on falling down and down
Until I inevitably hit the ground
Once I hit the ground I won't get up
Ill just stay there all bent up
It will be a pit of despair
And in it nothing will be fair

Memories

Memories

I close my eyes and in fly memories of pain
Memories of all the people I've pushed away for gain
This selfishness I've shown is coming back to get me
Like a shark coming in to attack the fish of the sea
I do think I should just fall down
And take these hits on the ground
So I'll just sit back and wait for my turn
My turn to suffer everything I deserve
It has come to the point where
I don't know what to do
I guess I'll just stand here and take
The hits from you
I do believe that everything
Everything is my fault
I do suppose I should drift away
Because I don't have anything else to say
I said I'm sorry you got mad I guess it isn't all that bad
It has come to the point where
I don't know what to do
I guess I'll just stand here and take
The hits from you
The confusion it runs through my mind
Faster every time
Apparently it's a mistake

I guess you just need a break
Everything I say you snap back
That hurts me more than anything
I try to help but you push me away
I guess it would be harder if I stay
I just don't know what to say
It has come to the point where

I don't know what to do
I guess I'll just stand here and take
The hits from you
But someday I must warn you
I'm bond to explode
All my feelings will spill out
And you'll know I am really in despair